New Year .. Same Me

New Years Resolutions. What a way to set ourselves up for failure, to set the bar higher than most can realistically sustain. I think it is so important to make goals and have things to constantly be improving upon within ourselves. But lets keep it simple, remembering that you are a beautiful human inside and out is the first step, then recognize what it is about yourself internally that you want to improve. Is it communication? Let's be real, we all struggle with that! What about hydration?! Or maybe breathing, because the root of all of our problems start with in-proper breathing.

Well I will speak for myself, it's all the above for me. Continually, year after year working on these three same 'resolutions'. Therefore, New Year .. Same Me! I am totally accepting of this. There are no hard expectations from myself because I believe with 'resolutions' such as these, they are constantly evolving and ever-changing, so I have no rule to live by besides continual bettering of my internal being, which in return as most of us know betters our physical being.

With that being said, I am not going to sit here and lie to you and say that I didn't make an external resolution. It was inspired by a stranger who unconsciously helped me go inside myself and reflect. He turned to Danny and asked what his resolution was, "to be present" Danny said. I thought, wow that's a great internal goal. The stranger then turned to me and asked the same question, I didn't answer right away. He chirped, "No more alcohol?!". I wasn't drunk, but I was a bit tipsy, and to hear that wasn't an insult but a reminder of my healing journey involving my many head injuries. I have been telling myself time and time again in the past 6 months that I need to stop drinking. I continuously have the influence to go against what I know is best for myself and I cave and have a couple drinks followed by P.C.S. symptoms almost immediately. "You read my mind!" I said to the stranger. I wasn't actually thinking that at the moment but what I meant was he read what my mind/brain needs. Stop Drinking Alcohol. I laid in bed this morning with a raging headache, the morning didn't go as I had planned and it angered me to the point of not recognizing myself. I thought to myself about these unrealistic body image based resolutions the majority of America comes up with and wondered if I am doing the same thing to myself. Is this something that I realistically won't be able to live up to. This conversation with myself potentially makes me out to be a heavy drinker, I am not. However I do enjoy a good cocktail , or a beer after a long day of touring, or a shot for a friends birthday, you know how it goes. So I said to myself that because I believe in bettering my inner wellbeing, and this is my mind/brain we're talking about that this resolution is attainable. It isn't setting the bar too high, 2022 no booze, New Year .. Same Me.